pulled a birthday prank on one of our floor mates last night. (: the smuggling of the balloons from our suite to his suite took about an hour. we had to stuff them into our bedsheets to make things more efficient. (;

guess how many balloons we stuffed his room with. p:

the crew that made it happen:



also made him a domo kun cake:



t'was fun. (:

i miss it.

a lot of people probably don't realize it, but complaining about things or ranting about stuff actually relieves a lot of stress. you get to let it all go in one breath and you also get to see what other people's reactions will be so you won't have to keep guessing whether if they'll think bad of you because you screwed up.  you also get other people's words of encouragement, or listen into how much THEY bombed the exam instead, so you don't actually feel that bad about failing it when it does happen. by complaining, you're letting them think for you, worry for you, and letting someone else tell yourself that it'll be okay, it'll be alright.

but in my opinion, i find it to be kind of immature and irresponsible. don't get me wrong, i'm not saying i never complain and i'm probably doing it right now, but when people excessively complain or whine about things that they "could've" done better, i'd think: "so why didn't you?" and then they'd go on to complain over and over again about why they couldn't do it without actually trying to solve the problem.

aren't we all just scared of what people will think of us?

we keep on complaining about the same things that we never try to change, but isn't that just because we actually DON'T want to change, and that we're just telling people how bad we already feel about it, so as to gain their acceptance, so as to let them know we've already tried and failed, and that it wasn't our fault for not being able to do it?

and if we didn't actually care what other people thought of our failures, what other reason would we have to care or let it frustrate us? if our failures did not threaten our social standing, if our failures did not create insecurities within ourselves, would we still complain?

i applaud those who suck it up and take the responsibility for their own faults. those who fail, and take it as another life lesson learned, are actually reflecting on their mistakes and taking steps to change. there's no reason those around you should be given the whole pie in worrying for you and listening to your endless complaints that have now lost their credibility because you never even tried to change, not in the least bit. trust me, even if they're too nice to show it, sooner or later they WILL get annoyed.

but what makes other people's words so much better than our own, that we have to continually seek their approval before we can be at peace with ourselves?

nothing, really. seriously, it's really not that much better. you're just trying to escape from listening to your own advice and failing. by the time it happens, you just don't want it to be actually your fault and yours alone because there's no one else to blame anymore.

but what's wrong with that? everyone makes mistakes.

we all do.

so believe in yourself more, and give yourself the words of encourage you need. look in the mirror and tell yourself that today will be different, today you'll change, because it's time for you to quit the excuses and finally be able to say: "i screwed up and it's all my fault."


nothing will happen if you don't let it.